BEAUTYTAINMENT PODCAST

Episode 9 Past Shadows Future Light, Defying The Limits Of Your Past

• Claudia Aceves • Season 1 • Episode 9

Share episode

In this powerful episode of BeautyTainment, we delve into the inspiring journey of overcoming adversity and forging a path to success in the beauty industry. We shares our deeply personal story of a rough childhood marked by challenges and setbacks, leading us down a difficult path in life.
Through candid conversation, we explore the pivotal moments that prompted a transformative shift, igniting the determination to break free from negative cycles and pursue our passion for business. From overcoming obstacles to embracing resilience, We reveal the pivotal decisions and mindset shifts that propelled us towards a brighter future.
Join us as we uncover the untold struggles behind the glamour, highlighting the courage and perseverance required to turn hardships into opportunities. Through resilience, hard work, and unwavering dedication, we  not only transformed our own lives but also built a thriving beauty business from the ground up.  #growth #growthmindset #entrepreneurship #beautybusiness

Follow and subscribe to our podcast
you can also follow us at
https://www.instagram.com/vanidosabeauty/
https://www.instagram.com/leeboy_savage/

hi everybody and welcome back to BeautyTainment and podcast I am your host Claudia Aceves and wusup Leeboy Savage you can find me at on Instagram um before we get started I just wanna say uh thanks everybody for all the feedback I mean we've been getting a lot of uh doing decent numbers and stuff on the podcast and just wanna say thank you guys for the support and uh all the feedback you guys give us we appreciate it and honestly like considering we've only been doing this for about three months what yeah shit I'm happy with this shit right like it's just cool to see that um I don't know like I like to listen to other people and the fact that people are listening to us like that that's kind of cool yeah for for sure and um man we appreciate you guys share you know let people know so we could get some more numbers on there and hopefully we're giving value to everybody that's the reason why we do this so just thank you guys once again thank you and so one of the things that like we were talking about was we never really introduce ourselves really to like our people you know what I mean like we kind of just came on here and it's like okay so this is what we do and like we're trying to share this but like I feel like people don't really know who we are per se I think a lot of people kind of seen you and know your story a lot and so I cuz I've been on all the other podcast yeah uh huh so but yeah we we have a lot of new followers on YouTube and stuff so I think I think it's a good idea just to kind of introduce ourselves and maybe tell ask some questions to our story yeah like kind of how we came to be I guess like our origin story like we're superheroes haha superheroes right supervillains uh huh superhero villains turn superheroes uh huh what do you wanna fight no there's a villain there's a villain in here it's not me hmm anyway so I'll let you get started I'll kind of like I feel like people know more about me than they know about you well I don't know I don't really go around like telling my story nobody asked me so I just kind of like you kind of just are yeah I'm just you know me so maybe you ask me questions might make it easier for me to like yeah so in case you guys don't know um round is like I don't know how would you say like you're just really easy going you don't like to not today but you don't like it's almost like prying information from you sometimes yeah right cause you're not like this open person but I think at the same time like you get a lot of information when you don't talk a lot about yourself you know what I mean um so I think that's why people don't feel like they know you or can get to know you cause you're very much like a closed door yeah I guess you know what I mean yeah I guess so I don't really you know I don't go like telling stories and emotions and all that stuff so I guess I guess I can see how people feel like that yeah yeah so I would say um okay so let's let's see so I always make fun of him that he was raised by wolves haha so if if you're his family out there like no offense um but yeah so I always kind of make fun of him that he got raised by wolves um you kind of raised yourself a lot just a little bit of that right so you are from so I was born in Colorado Denver is where my family my family is originally from shit they were been in New Mexico that area since yeah before it was United States and I feel like you you grew up kind of like like old school where you had like a bunch of cousins and a bunch of aunts and like everybody was kind of together no growing up um yeah well growing up I had a what great grandma great grandma oh that's right I had like shit my great grandparents both both great grandparents well I had a on my mom's side I had a 1 2 3 4 4 great great grandparents alive at the same time and then my grandparents alive at the same time all of them um suffer on my dad's side I didn't have my great oh yeah I met her when I was little yeah and I remember vaguely but not like too crazy yeah cause I remember when we went to go visit I met your great grandparents and that always confused me but my great grandparents were more like my grandparents on my mom's side yeah yeah they were like like uh like grandparents I lived with them and they kind of raised me too a little bit so and so they had a bunch of kids and then your grandparents had a bunch of kids so you had like a ton of family no yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah and so you guys all kind of hung out together grew up together and all that did a bunch of bad shit together you know cousins you get cousins yeah there's number trouble and then uh so most of my family was in prison let's start off there so growing up my grandpa my shit on my uncle's all my family got went to prison like an 80 so I was going to prison since I was a in diapers yeah like visiting and stuff right there was like a big event my grandma make burritos we you know prisons are always far away in the middle of nowhere yeah so she make burritos we drive like this happened 3 4 times a year and it was like always a big event so we'd go visit my grandpa or my uncle or something it was like a whole little thing that I look forward to you know I got I got I got pictures from when I was a little kid posing like I was in prison already that was fun did you have your own little like prison scrubs haha no no no prison so so like my heroes were all prison yeah by my grandpa I hear all these stories my grandpas and my uncles and stuff so I idolize them you know yeah that was a maybe not the best thing to idolize but I was gonna say that's probably not the best thing but that's what you saw like it was like a like a right of I thought going to prison was like a right of passage it's just something that you had to do no I actually like like I couldn't wait to go to prison when I was a kid so I like fuck I'm gonna go to prison I'm gonna be this it's all it's all cool and everything yeah this is a little fucked up but yeah did your like did your grandpa and stuff ever talk about how bad it was or was he just like happy to see you guys and stuff or no they didn't tell us anything when they're just happy to see us and stuff yeah like just eat and bullshit and happy to happy see us you know just doing your your normal childhood prison visitation yeah and then uh shit I was uh think I was like 5 and the feds raided my house and they took my mom to prison so I didn't see her for like seven years after that so that's crazy so so like you were like really young and you kind of didn't get to see your mom a lot and stuff yeah I was I'm like um how do you say it I I there was a lot of drugs and and violence and uh yeah criminal and and crime activity you know I grew up around you're you're you're typical raised by wolves type of situation raised by wolves but yeah I don't know how my mom and dad got together man there's two worlds I don't know how they fucking collided cause my dad came my dad's white I'm I was gonna say your your dad's white in my mom's Chicana you know what I mean yeah yeah so how they met I don't know they met somewhere but I gotta ask I gotta ask your mom when I see her like how the two worlds collide on cause my dad came from like a how is I don't want to call him rednecks but like they drove tractors and fix shit you can call him hillbillies straight like if you guys ever seen the Andy Griffith Show that was my grandma my dad's mom like she was like the aunt B right there like the best grandma like always cooking always has snacks and shit and it was always baking right yeah yeah and on my mom's side my my my mom's mom um she was awesome too but I like I wasn't around her too much when we were kids she was uh she had moved to California and stuff and uh there she did that my mom's side of the family is pretty wild man I hear stories about my like my I don't I wasn't there so I don't know but her stories like my grandma blew up cop cars and shit like that so this may may or not may not happen I don't know you know my grandma passed but um I I actually wasn't there I wish I would have been but yeah I didn't get to see her before she passed yeah but yeah so so I don't know how those two worlds collided anyway so but it was cool cause on Thanksgiving and Christmas I'd go eat over here fucking Turkey and stuff and traditional way and then go to my other side and my my cousin hey what's up white boy fuckin milk weed yeah meeklo meeklo man the movie came out of shit killed me bro everybody was calling you meeklo for like years or what yeah nothing but meeklo and then uh so I'd go eat tamales and shit after eating things you know after eating uh Turkey stuff so like for Christmas did everybody celebrate did your white family celebrate on the 25th and then your brown family celebrate on the 24th so we'd go to my dad's family Christmas Eve and do the presents and other stuff and then Christmas Day we'd go to my I'd go to my other grandma's house in the morning yeah in the morning present so you guys so but your your brown family or your brown side they were like Chicano so they weren't like Mexican Mexican no no they're not Mexican but but they're Mexican like four generation three generations back I don't know they were been there since they were there was Spain Mexico United States yeah like it goes way back you know what I mean so they're they're original fucking and it's all mixed up it's not like I don't I guess you call like mestizos you know what I mean yeah like yeah like they they've just kind of been there and then like they got all mixed up with the Spanish and then God knows everything else whoever decided that that that country was at the moment that's where they were you know yeah and then you also look at round and you see his beautiful evil blue eyes why they gotta be evil for they're evil today but um you don't think but there's actually like Native American blood in you right yeah as far as I know yeah it's all mixed you know Spanish Mexican and native it's like the jumbo of everything you know yeah that's cool so that's how you kind of grew up yeah it was just it was just it was different I think it was different than uh I know there's a lot of people that had it worse and my parents were young you know I'm not gonna come here and shit on my parents I love them and uh but I I don't think we got the best example of how to be parents and yeah how to grow up you know but I love them anyways and put that in there yeah and what about you I mean we've heard your story a little bit but I don't think well we're not we're not we're not done with you around so you gotta stay on me for so then Roundy was naughty and he was being potty and being a cholo so he likes to leave certain stuff out as usual no so I started like you know you you you grow up a certain way like you you you're given the circumstances you're given in the shapes you're outlook on life you know yeah for sure especially when you're a teenager like you said you like the only people that you were able to idolize were the people like they were potty yeah so you you grow up and you know you're angry you got all this aggression testosterone and the only way you know how to deal with shit is not a good combination no it's not good combination and violence you know so that's the only way you know how to lash out and do shit so I guess I started living kind of the street life like at 12 smoking weed and doing hood rat shit with my homies you know the rest of your friends yeah I'm not gonna go into detail or nothing but but you was being naughty yeah but I was not not being homeless when I say street life I mean just like living living the street life you know what I mean and then living in the laundromats I never lived in the laundromats I slept in the laundromats a few times see that's different but that was that was by choice you know when you get I can't even like I hate when people go on places and they blame their parents for everything you know at a certain age like I I was able to make my own decisions and I you know I made some bad decisions and I chose to go down a path that probably wasn't the best path to go down you know I mean and so like you get older and this and that and what do you think like from your past life that got you to like really wanna do be an entrepreneur and like kind of go off on your own obviously I'm gonna say No. 1 is like a lack of you like you didn't like authority yeah I couldn't fight you know like people tell you what to do no I couldn't do being told what to do and like fucking how to do it and all that so even though you know I got you now what's good you need you need some structure no I just messed around but um I think it was just that and then uh cause you worked at like Wendy's for like two hours and then you were like fuck this yeah I fucking threw a cheeseburger at somebody else I can't do it it wasn't it wasn't for me I don't like we don't what to do nah I just I I wasn't very good with people like in in like normal people normal people I I felt could like you put like back in the day you could put me in a room full of killers and I feel completely comfortable fine yeah relaxed yeah and then like when I met you you start taking me around like doctors and she like that yeah I felt so fucking uncomfortable I was like out of like a fish out of water you know yeah and it just kind of progressed and but like social anxiety or what maybe a little bit just just not feeling comfortable like these were your people yeah right I don't even know how to how to explain and you know you start changing cause I start having the you know have my older son I don't even explain when I have my son it was like a like a soothing came over me and and you got the calm it was like whatever anger I had kind of left but that's only lifestyle I knew so I was still dabbling you know trying it was a slow progression of change right but it doesn't just happen like that you know cause I guess you take a fish out of water you you kind of the fish lose its identity a little bit and don't know how to swim yeah is that is that what you felt like like once you started um kind of doing life as an adult hey you was hard man it was like that change I remember the first time so somebody so this I'm I'm I've ever told anybody there was a time I was walking down the street and there's this homie passed by and he was dogging me out right and you like Charlie Holmes no you know and and like I don't know what hit me but I just like nah it's not fucking but any other time I we would have been fighting right there you know yeah and I just like nah it's not worth it whatever you know I got stay out of trouble whatever and I felt like such a bitch I walked away from like a coward you know what I mean yeah and I was that was hard to deal with it was real fucking hard to deal with cause you felt like this has been your whole identity and now it's like yeah I'm just cause before you know you walk around like a fucking rooster when another rooster puffs his chest I wouldn't know it yeah yeah so that that that was hard to deal with like just you literally felt like a bitch like fuck man I'm a coward I didn't say nothing I let that I let him look at me like that and I didn't do nothing you know and that's kind of how you felt like that you were growing up and stuff it it was a milestone but it didn't feel good yeah until I didn't feel good at all uh huh and um so the kids I just having kids you know gives you a little purpose little more purpose and you have to think before you react and do stuff you know uh huh so I think that and as far as entrepreneurship it was obviously lack of not liking authority yeah and I think I never had a I never had fear of like starting over cause you you like yeah we've never lived around a lot of stuff so I started over many times you know what I mean uh huh and then I think um like being broke you know it's not a big deal and I know if you made it once you can make it twice you can make it three times so if you lose it it's gonna come back that much faster you know yeah yeah so I think that's what entrepreneur because if you're gonna be entrepreneur you got to be prepared to be broke yeah often on yeah but not not poor cause poor is a mindset yeah poor I think poor you gotta be make a conscious decision to be poor broke is just a temporary circumstance you know yeah I'm not afraid of being broke I was never afraid of being broke poor I can be poor do you feel like now that we're kind of like on our own do you feel like you have a people in the past that you can kind of talk to about business or are you you're like well you and you and I have discussed this where it kind of feels like fuck man we don't have anybody to really call and like is this the right business move and stuff so we only have like each other you know no I don't really uh don't really have nobody so none my family a lot of my family's gone and or there I wouldn't be able to talk to him about business anyways yeah and um a lot of my friends like grow with or are dead or in prison you know uh huh so there's not really uh like I don't have that to go to you know what I mean yeah which kind of sucks to be honest cause like it's like I always tell you we're kind of like so stuck in the weeds that a lot of the times like it's hard to look at our business from the outside yeah you know and it's hard not to have those people that you can trust within your family that you know want the best for you you know and it's like just about you growing and stuff like that that's that's nothing about growing you know when you grow and you start making different decisions and you know people know you a certain way so when they see you like changing or you start like you kind of have to separate yourself you know a little bit sucks you feel bad and then they start saying like oh you think you're better than us or that that type of they're like oh it's not even the same homie yeah yeah you're not even the same dog yeah so and that fucks that fucks with your ego in your head too yeah I mean it's kind of like that thing where like I didn't say none of that guy it's the same type of feeling you know yeah so it kind of fucks with your identity you know yeah and so you felt like when you started getting more into the business cause I remember so guys like you have no idea so around right now does um a lot of social medias yeah he does all the back and stuff um he has two laptops cool guy and like he I you love technology so like do you love learning about the back and stuff like the SEOs you were just talking about that yeah that's stuff that I don't really care about but I think you're like a very technical mind uh huh dude when I met you like you didn't even know how to turn on a computer haha I fucking didn't I'm exaggerating but I'm not though now you have to show me how to use MySpace member oh that's right and you didn't you didn't even know how to like use it though I I I literally like I gotta I mean I got passed up to like 9th grade but essentially I have a 7th grade education yeah I was getting you know I got expelled from school suspended from school so literally I I stopped going to 7th grade and they would pass me up cause they didn't want me in the school you know what I mean so but it was it was you were like really another person you know and I think I think that's kind of what like worked out for us cause I was like so outgoing yeah and you were like very quiet and like you were like a ball of anger but you were still like very to yourself I don't think when you met me I was angry I was like in the I was you actually I had the class you no you met me after I had already like yeah you were pretty calm yeah I wasn't I wasn't like that why me like you just kept to yourself is what I mean yeah yeah just kept to myself yeah and then um I remember too like the computer stuff you didn't you didn't know how to use a computer or whatever nah and then remember I would tell you like oh that's go eat Indian food and you were like you were so enclosed in your habitat you know what I'm saying yeah yeah I was I was I think everybody's like the creature habit you know it takes a lot to break out of your habits yeah but the Indian food oh man fucking love it but he loves it now but at first you were like no I couldn't have it it was the smell yeah you know you got to get over the smell to eat the food the smell it was just really strong you know what I mean yeah but that's what I'm saying though like you were so used to like it kind of took a lot to kind of start getting you out oh yeah took a lot for me to come out of my shell and just like just how do you how do you say it like um so what I'm looking for just kind of grow you know yeah yeah yeah like grow out of what you had been doing get out of your comfort zone that's what I was looking for yeah yeah and I think like that you were saying like I started we kind of started to go to places together whatever yeah and with people that I knew cause I was so he's saying with doctors and stuff cause I worked in the medical field at that time when we met so we started like mingling with the with these people and this is the only thing I knew so I had been working the medical field since I was 16 and when we met I was 23 and I was 25 or 27 I don't remember um I don't remember but I I the only reason I remember is cause by like 24 like we had our first baby but that's neither here nor there like five months after three months yeah it was it was quick yeah it was fast um but so for me it was normal cause I had been around just people not even like friends just being around that situation having to call you know whatever and so when we started going around the people that I knew um you know going to events and stuff like Christmas dinners and you were like out of your element I was way out of my element but you still went on you pushed yourself you did yeah it wasn't comfortable shit I ain't gonna lie I felt like I don't even I can't even explain now looking back like I can't explain how I felt but yeah it was it was really fucking uncomfortable yeah and so like even just even in a relaxed setting like it wasn't comfortable for you because you felt like what like I don't have anything in common with these people or what yes that you know in like when I even when I start doing uh cause I got I start when you met me I was doing construction alright and stuff and I get around like these older guys and they're telling stories about when they were young and partying and like college times and like fun stuff and I didn't have any of those stories all my stories were were kind of fucked up you know what I mean yeah you're like I can't tell that story yeah so I didn't I didn't have nothing in common with the I guess normal regular people you know and I think that's the one thing about like that you and I always talk about like maybe back in the day we would have fit into some kind of yeah crowd but then as we grew or like kind of separated and grew into different people like it's very hard like we're kind of I don't think we fit into like like business wise we don't fit in with the typical business people yeah and then like the past life I don't feel like I fit in anymore either you know so it's like a but now I don't care I'm comfortable with it like fuck it yeah we're unique we are what we are and you know I mean the fuck yeah you don't like us fuck them yeah but like in the very in the beginning it was kind of like we have like all these people were kind of walking away from them and stuff and yeah you know to the point where people in our family both of our families are kind of like oh they think they're too good and yeah I don't think it was some some of it was walking away but I think a lot of it was them like separating themselves too you know cause they felt a certain way too you know well and I think like a lot of the times too well you know like when we were building our business or whatever um that's all we were doing so we wouldn't go to like family parties or we wouldn't go to like when everybody get would get together we just wouldn't go yeah and so like that we separated ourselves too I guess and yeah yeah well we were just so locked in with each other you know we'd like comfortable throwing some movies and just hang out you know who it is when you're in your honeymoon stage yeah well even with the kids when we had our first baby we were still kind of in the honeymoon stage so it was just like all about that or whatever yeah we don't want to leave the house we'd rather stay home and watch a movie or go out to eat you know yeah yeah we love eating guys yeah yeah and I and I was kind of a I was kind of a what would you call like antisocial a little bit yeah a little bit yeah and so we started like so we got together we started going to these things and then you really got like a few years later um you started really reaching out for trying to socialize more like you started reading about health self help books and all that stuff the books did a big thing so what do you think like kind of made you cause you weren't you didn't really read when I met you I mean I you I know you read when you were like in you know in juvenile in juvie and stuff but I mean who who doesn't really that's only shit especially when you're like in solitary or whatever yeah um but like what shifted for you that you were like let me listen to this and I think it was when we started I started getting to like some health stuff um no honestly I you know just it was just something you know what just being around people like in construction I was around cause I worked around a bunch of older guys you know what I mean yeah all your friends have always been older yeah yeah yeah while in construction yeah so they uh I think it was part of that like I wanted to be able to like like um how do you call it like have a conversation with them or what no I can have conversations with them obviously you know I mean but like kind of just um I I just wanted something more something better you know so you kind of saw like oh there's this there's all this out there yeah and I wanna know what this out there is well you know they have stories and like I don't have boats and you know they doing stuff and like I never thought that was you know within reach for me you know what I mean well you also thought you were gonna be dead to be honest I like I feel fortunate to be here and like talking and doing this I never never imagined this you know what I mean yeah like which part like being alive or that too like honestly if you would have asked anybody from before and you would have went and told him I was dead or in prison it would have been like it would have not shocked anyone yeah yeah but I think if you told him I'm doing this that would have been more shocking to him you know what I mean yeah so that that's uh if that makes any sense yeah and so you were you're talking to all your friends that are older and stuff and they're like oh I had this life when I went to college and I had this life I had a bow and this whole thing yeah so that kind of made you like open your eyes to like oh shit like there's all this I can have it too or like I wanna know what this other life is about or what it was both like oh man this fucking all you know all you gotta do is work hard put your head down and you can make this shit happen you know what I mean it's attainable like I like I didn't know that was attainable before I I I can't even explain it like growing up it was like a hopeless feeling was it cause I know for me like when people would talk about going to like growing up it was never like oh you're gonna go to college and you're gonna do good like that was that was for white people white people did yeah back back back you know so was it like did you feel like that was that kind of the sentiment like it was solar water reach for you too what like growing up you would like is is fucked up but everybody is like oh you're gonna end up in prison cause the way I yeah I was you know so that's what I just like fuck it that's where I'm gonna go you know what I mean so I never college none of that shit ever like I never thought about it you know that's crazy no like to look back at that like that kind of is hopeless yeah but it's but it's not but it is yeah well you know now that like our our oldest uh he's 14 I look at him man and I see how innocent he is still yeah and it just blows my mind like at his age it was chaotic yeah so and I'm glad we were able to do that for our kids and sheltering from all that stuff you know yeah cause they don't know nothing about that life yeah I want them to know that it's out there and be aware of it but I don't want them nowhere near it or to see it or you know what I mean yeah I mean I would like to put them in a glass yeah you you glass bubble not even a glass because they they would get hurt but that like a plastic bubble but that's a mom's job you know make sure they have the helmet and all that stuff but my job is to like take that helmet off hey see that ramp right there go jump on the bike on it you know what I mean be careful but it's right there go jump in you you gotta you gotta you gotta put them in little danger and have them test the water I don't want my kids to be scared of life you know what I mean yeah I want them to grab a life by the horns and just fucking just tackle that shit yeah and so you started reading and like you kind of saw like this and this is before podcast right so at that time what people were doing we're like that I think that's when like the self I don't wanna say craze but that's when um people are having being successful on YouTube and when people are coming out with more self help books but not your traditional self help right or what would you call the motivation um you know what actually I started listening to Alex Jones don't judge me because I was Jones of the shit one of my heroes but literally I was listening to him and people talk shit whatever but that guy has a he's he's smart as shit and like his his his morals that he pushes stuff are really fucking on and it really made me take a look in the mirror and and and think about some shit you know what I mean yeah and then I remember he had a guest on Robert Kiosaki the author Rich that Poor Dad that's the first business book that we've read I heard him talking and I was like fuck man really it like blew my mind and I grabbed the book and everything it's just been so that's how we started on the book on Rich Dad poor dad yeah yeah okay yeah it was from listen to Alex Jones yeah cause I was always reading novels but I remember like when we read that when we were like what I know it blew my mind everybody has to read it yeah but and then you this this well until then haha and so then you put me on the spotlight today I know I know well yeah like I I you know so I I've been a podcast where they ask me like about stuff and you know I feel like it's very strange to talk about myself yeah you know I I I do know cause this is not comfortable talking about myself it's not cause you have to like analyze your life and you know when you say it out loud it kind of like fuck man yeah like uh like I swear it wasn't that bad but this is how it was yeah I wouldn't even go into detail cause yeah it would be fucking it would sound horrible but yeah but you made it alive out of there and shit yeah yeah yeah but it is very uncomfortable talking about myself I'm not gonna lie yeah this is actually the first time I think I've ever like even said any of the shit yeah I think so and I'm what but I think it's good like I think like I don't know it kind of makes you analyze yourself as you're talking about it and like kind of takes you back to those awesome moments in childhood yeah it's it's it wasn't all bad though you know it was good times it was always good times and bad times yeah yeah and you you were free to be like you know running around and stuff with your cousins and stuff like that yeah cousins are fucking horrible together yeah you almost blew up your arm that's a thing I did blow my arm but how fun you had that experience so we uh it was a fourth it was a day after 4th of July and we went and got you know all the leftover fireworks made a big old fucking pile like in an ant hill or something it was in fourth grade I think we're in fourth grade uh huh and we made a big old fucking pile right there it was like it was huge right and my grandpa was right there reading this newspaper and he's like hey cabrones you guys gonna blow yourselves up like oh man what are you talking about old man you know what I mean so me and my cousin and a couple other little little bad kids right there fucking um we lit a piece of paper right and threw it in the pile and we we all jumped away and it just starts sparkling we sat there for a minute and just started sparkling so we we moved in we're like are we start fucking with it fucking thing blew up boom I had a 3rd degree burns all over my arm had to rush me to the hospital sidewalk was all cracked my grandpa didn't say shit just kept reading this newspaper Grandpa's like I told you your arms over there go pick it up yeah he he was for real but your arm didn't even stay scarred or nothing huh naw it's cause um I start going to the beach every day after that yeah my my uncle ended up taking me to the ocean we were just swimming all the time and I think the salt water kind of healed it yeah cause I don't have no scars no like at all like I would have never known it was bad though that's crazy I remember at the hospital they peeled all my skin off oh man it was fucking painful and then your grandpa's like see that's what you get well he was a he was a prisoner of war in World War 2 my grandpa uh huh oh yeah yeah so he that probably wasn't shit to him you know yeah probably not yeah yeah so you're getting into the business books and stuff and then is that what kind of ignited you to be like I can do it too cause there's there's a difference between reading somebody else doing it and then going I can do that too like what do you think spark that into like existence in your in your head well I think honestly I think you had a big part of it just cause you're so fucking like non stop you know what I mean yeah and and go getter so that definitely brought some of it out of me and then um I would say it's it's still a struggle I think to this day still struggle just you know trying to take yourself out of your comfort zone is never never feels good getting uncomfortable for sure he's yeah well like right now yeah that's not cool babe so I made you mad in the morning so you just like coming to have me up yeah yeah there was a little bit of that all right all right so this is like something cute that I do sometimes like when he gets me mad I'm like let me put you in an uncomfortable situation because I know like how you don't like to be uncomfortable and you you push through it but I'm just saying like how fun oh yeah you like how fun to be like oh man like oh I wanna talk about this no more it's fun what was it doing when your class look at look at him girls puffing up his chest look at him trying to stretch through here he got all red that wasn't cool that was funny that was not funny that was funny yeah that wasn't funny sorry for another day was hilarious yeah you made me mad yeah it's a little things in life guys like you you know like you just gotta grab them and make those little moments yours yeah you just like fucking just like picking at me forever I still love you I know yeah cause I'm the cutest so cute so cute anyway so that's that's what kind of got you into um that mind shift right it's like reading and like you and I talking about these stuff these things cause I'm always like go go go and like I push past through it or whatever yeah and you were you were already in the medical field and stuff in like huh so to me when I saw you in the medical field and I was like she's doing something you know but I like like I gotta lock this one in I gotta keep this one this one has potential I wanna get her pregnant like three months and you sure did hahaha so we met guys like a little house party and I remember we met on a Friday yeah and then we went our separate ways because I'm a lady that was before after you licked my face okay so that we're not gonna talk about that um so then that was Friday and so then Saturday we met at the club like who doesn't meet at the club right it was a Saturday we both got shit faced and then like we never left we literally never left each other side from there it was for yeah it was right like we were just together every single day I couldn't get you away from me you just won't leave me alone yes that was it I went you you're going to my house well yeah we're gonna come over to my house like I'm fucking Mexican and I my mom and my oh my dad was in prison but like my mom would have a fit if you came over to the house like are you kidding remember that one time I sneaked you into the house I did not fucking like it and we were dude we were like I was already like 23 or whatever I I did not like sneaking I felt like a little fucking kid it's not my not my thing to sneak but you know you know if you're out there you're a girl when you're Mexican like these are the things that we do it doesn't matter if you're not married you're not living so you you that's what you do yeah I felt fucking and I had never done that I was always so scared really yeah but you just couldn't get enough of me I just couldn't I was like come on over that's right I know I know I know you stuck to me like glue and so what's your favorite thing about what we do now like like with all everything that you've Learned um everything that you start learning and stuff like what's your favorite thing about what we currently are doing um I guess it's a it's a mixture of everything just you know we get to be um creative we we get to schedule I mean we work constantly but it's out of choice you know uh huh we decide to work as hard as we do yeah we get to do as a family our kids are there like if you guys ever go to our studio sometimes in the in when we work late the kids are there causing a fucking ruckus but they still are bad it's not ideal maybe but at the same time like this is the life you know like it's this is and how it's done it's just purpose I feel like we have a purpose and I think I think without purpose you you're not really you're just wasting up space you know what I mean yeah so that's my favorite thing just having a purpose and a goal and just fucking going at it and then once you reach that one then you move it never stops you know I don't I don't wanna stop yeah people talk about retiring I don't wanna retire for what you know what I mean I love creating man I love building and creating I think I spent half of my life just destroying so now I get to create and build oh did we just cross a barrier oh look at you look at me get off philosophical philosophical oh is it philosophical with your mind not getting um intellectual intellectual you're getting all intellectual with your mind oh my God haha you're bringing it back bring it back bring it back but yeah so like you had an interesting childhood yeah yeah but I think everything made you like more resilient oh for sure I think so and I think that's kind of what you bring to the table like with us it's like you're never afraid of losing it and I'm always so scared of it that like I won't fucking sleep you know what I mean you get warmed up pretty tight yeah I just it doesn't look like it but I'm pretty tightly wound yeah it's what I figure we you know we made it once we made it twice made it three times why can't we make it four or five times you know what I mean yeah and each time you lose and you come back you come back faster and stronger yeah and um like I said being being broke is just a temporary circumstance so I'm not scared to be broke yeah I'm scared to be poor cause poor like I said it's a mindset and it's a it's a conscious choice to be poor yeah for sure these that's all being broken shit I mean if you're like I said if you're gonna be in business prepare to be broke cause you're gonna be there's gonna be time you're gonna be broke but we fucking figure it out man yeah exactly like you can't just be like whoa is me like it fucking sucks but then you kind of just like fuck you figure it out no then you get your back against the wall and you have to fucking you just gotta fucking put your head down and do it you know yeah you can just sit there and cry yeah like that don't do nothing they'll solve nothing I mean you can sit there and cry for like 30 seconds yeah I don't let you cry I'm like leave me alone get your ass up go get make us some money Mujer yeah that's been a it's been a hell of a ride watching you grow yeah I guess he says it's been a lot of growth for sure I think yeah I mean I'm not where I wanna be I wish I I was further long in the growth you know yeah cause it still I think you still it's at imposter syndrome oh man for sure I think everybody deals with that but it's what do you think you struggle with most um I don't know I think uh I think being social to be honest really I I I'm alright but it's not like I don't do it like it's not like I have I have to make a conscious decision to be social yeah I mean I have to like do it you have to like push yourself it's not comfortable you know I mean yeah like I have to push myself to do it I think that's the hardest part right there yeah I could see that what about you no it doesn't look like it what what's your hardest thing to deal with um I don't know it's all no it doesn't come easy like none of it none of it comes easy you make it look easy though honestly well that's right and so I think that is I I strive to do that yeah you know and I strive to try to put my emotions aside I think the hardest thing would have to be like the imposter syndrome that's really hard on me I think that's I think that's the hardest thing I think you do I think you fucking do awesome job cause from the outside I know I know because I know you and I'm next to you and I know how you feel but I from the outside I don't think anybody could tell yeah and that's that's I think that's just like a a a a how do you fucking I can't even think of a gift it is all it is you know yeah and I think that's why people kind of don't see you as a as vulnerable at all because you make it look easy but I think that in itself like that's really fucking hard cause you just gotta tell yourself like um I don't know if I could do it but you fucking do it anyway yeah like you can be scared but you do it anyway yeah you can be sad you can be crying but you do it anyway and I think that's that's what I do yeah like I always have a tendency to like push through it even if I don't want to yeah cause like here we are it's true right now yeah when I was like I don't wanna do this podcast yeah there's more there's morning this podcast almost got canceled no it's got canceled cause you don't know how to act cause you don't know how to act you like poking you like poking a bear yeah it's a little spicy in here though well you wanted a heater on yeah I know it was cold always man they say it's a temperature thing if you guys don't know you guys ever go to the studio I put the AC on she goes and turns it off I put it on she turns the heater on this is fucking constant battle so until my room gets to like 90 degrees I have the heater on dude it'll be like it'll be like 90 degrees outside and we're driving down the street I have AC and she has the fucking heater on and the heater just cancelling out all my cold air oh yeah you put the AC to like negative 25 bro it's 90 degrees outside outside not in the car and you got a sweater on and you have the fucking heater on I'm just there fucking sweating it's not cool it's Texas you gotta get used to it's not cool like like come on give me give me some cold air I do I put it down to like 80 but yeah the fucking imposter center man that's I think a lot of us have it I think everybody has it I think and if you fucking don't there's something wrong there's something fucking wrong with you I don't I don't know there's some people out there just make it look fucking easy man like you make it easy but there's some people out there I think they actually like like it's just in them you know what I mean you know what and I think I think that's a fucking ego thing I think you should be scared of taking the next step but you should do it anyway yeah you should figure it out and then you feel better about it then you take the next step but there's some people out there that don't know what the fuck they're talking about and they're like look at me spilling shit they just do it I do some people don't like literally don't they're in their own fucking movie you know what I mean yeah they start their own movie they're the only character no matter what I wish I could be like that I don't know man I I think that's Ego though that's Ego but fuck it must be nice yeah it's like when somebody's crazy right and you're like man it must be nice to just have like your own movie and you're just you're just going through life like not knowing not caring with anybody else thinks you're just like that's a fucking skill right there man I wanna be in my own goddamn movie that's what crackheads do I don't think so you know the crazy people yelling in the middle of the street that's that's they're laughing when they don't give a fuck what anybody thinks or what's going on no I mean at that point like I mean they're pointing on their pants and shitting in the street they don't give a shit there's not one fuck giving yeah talk about fucking crazy we I mean we don't see that much here but there's a little bit of it yeah that's crazy right for some reason right there on Fredericksburg man by the by the fucking station by the bus station yeah some characters yeah we see some shit sometimes yeah fucking up and you what what why what made you think why no why but what what pushed you to go into entrepreneurship I was kind of well you know and I've talked about this before but I was kind of thrown into it and you know that because I always felt that I wanted to do something big yeah like I always never saw myself small I always wanted to do something big and I always knew I was gonna do something big until this day like I think I'm gonna be fucking the Paul Mitchell owner John Leggolia John what is it well anyway the Bill you know just a billionaire with a B that is worth like 20 billion anyway I always thought I was gonna be something big and I always thought I was gonna be CEO of some big company or or something so I always saw myself like going to college going to university going up the not necessarily corporate ladder but like you know being like this I never thought I was gonna be on my own um but then I was in the medical field yeah and you know a lot of people know the story before um that I've talked to or even another podcast I've told the story but long story super short I was I worked myself up in the medical field yeah hmm to be um like the office manager and always see a couple clinics and one of the clinics I was working at that time um we got raided by the feds I was like oh shit not again remember I remember you were outside all worried remember I was like fuck well remember when we first met and you're like we were messing around and talking and stuff and you're like hey I'm gonna go to college gonna go to college you were lying to me you were on your way to prison why why were you lying to me about it I don't know tell me you're going to college and then when you tell me you're going to prison no big deal everybody knows okay guys again this is before he's but this is before he opened up and I had no idea like you know I knew like there was something in there and you know like I saw some little bit of crazy in you but you didn't even fucking tell me yet so I didn't fucking know like you know that you were okay with that was that was like that was like a normal Sunday right there yeah you were like oh okay cool okay cool yeah we dating after before like what am I writing letters or what are you gonna write me or what here's gonna send me some stamps or what to write you um so yeah so he got raided by the feds and I was like oh my God I'm already a federal felon and felon so I was like hanging out and long story short we were gonna open a business together because his wife was a cunt and she um didn't wanna work me didn't want me working there at the clinic yeah so he was like you're too much of a big asset you're bringing in too much money he thought I was smart enough to like um uh going to business going to business with and so we opened up this business and we were I would I don't know what would you say like a month in two months in fucking hundred construction you weren't even done remodeling around no it was almost done though yeah like right there story of our lives right right so we have spent all kinds of money um my phone's ringing let me turn it off real quick

we had bar bar that's like potty cast 1:

01 bro I forgot to turn it off it keeps ringing you're a Rudy Bear I'm sorry you couldn't even hear it anyway oh you couldn't I had a headphone so I can tell okay or you just felt it ring yeah or felt it whatever um let me try that thanks a lot babe so while we were a couple weeks from opening and then the and then the feds raided doctor Diaz yeah yeah so far man that have the Candyman was his name Mama can't get away from fucking prison people apparently neither can I like fuck man and so he gets arrested you know what I remind me I wanna I wanna look it up cause this was a while ago so maybe he's getting out soon yeah I hope he's not dead cause that dude was all the shit already he's like what would you say like 62 or 63 years ago but his story was crazy too like he had a dude he's fucking I was driven like like crazy he was driven so just a quick quick short short short story um he was a doctor in Argentina came to the US and they didn't validate his he was already a doctor he got here and he was already old though right when he got here I mean he was older yeah like well yeah I he was like probably his 30s or something yeah but that's crazy though and then he had to go to med school be accepted into med school and go through med school again take the test again to become a doctor to become a doctor again in the US so I mean he's he's very very driven that's fucking driven yeah he had drive but I just you know he liked the ladies too much yeah he liked the ladies yeah and his his lady like the money so anyway and we were we were getting ready to do a lot of a lot of like we're gonna go into a real estate with them and all kinds of stuff we were how we were actually looking for places I never forgot about that oh man it's like we we always get to the to the finish line and then fucking the story of our fucking lives all right and every time it's a fucking lesson but like man we get we always get so fucking close we get to the 10 yard line and then the ball gets fumbled and we have to start all over on the other side again it keeps happening but fuck I didn't think about that yet but it's entrepreneurship yeah it really really is I don't care who it is it's entrepreneurship well yeah so um he got arrested and we ended up with this building yeah right and I we didn't know what else to do so I was like okay well I guess I'll keep doing this thing yeah and see where it goes and hopefully we can make some money out of it and I I made a profitable man like we did and that's that's what we talked about the commercial and stuff cause we had to do commercials and that was before social media right so when we tell you a commercial expensive is from experience cause we had to fucking dish out money we didn't have to create commercials for that business member yeah for a business that we were not equipped to run no not at all not at that time not even fucking close I can't even talk about the stuff but there was stuff you know what and I always tell people like I will do whatever the fuck it takes to keep a business running if you don't have the fucking mentality yeah you're fucking dead yeah we've done it we've whatever we've had days remember we've had days where we're fucking collecting change from the fucking couch because we were so fucking broke fucking so fucking broke I went to the newspaper route fucking 3 o'clock in the morning just to get yeah you know what I mean and that's when I found out that kids are not doing the paper route haha it's fucking adult yeah it's adult that she was that she was fucking hard dude that was hard and like I went to I went with you a few times I went with you a few times and man that shit was fucking hard like the shit that we've done to keep the business afloat in this is while we had our business right yeah we already had a business in yeah time you fucking being broke is but it's not poor it's not poor don't get being broke confused with being poor and so we had the business and I was kind of like thrown into it and the thing is you guys have to understand is like at that time and maybe things are different now I don't know maybe not when you have a felony and you have experience but your experience can't be like uh can be stringed back to somebody that got arrested like the clinic was closed like nobody's gonna fucking hire you in the medical room I remember you were trying to get jobs I tried I tried you know because you already associated you already had a felon from going to prison for the other shit and then you're associated with the doctor was like like fucking like like toxic material nobody wanted to touch it nobody wanted to fucking touch it and I mean yeah so I kind of like I didn't have a choice you know so we kind of built this thing up and um I was thrown into it yeah you know and ideally at first we wanted to just run it right like happy people in there and then run in yeah and then we had shitty people in there they did shitty things and they was like okay well now I have to become a technician so that's when I got my license yeah as a licensed esthetician and stuff and then I got out and then you know everything kind of just happened and so we saw the next wave and it's so true like you always say like I don't with the with the trends like I don't ever catch them but I caught this one yeah permanent makeup and so I became a permanent makeup artist and that kind of here we are propelled us to where we were propelled us yeah but it was a lot of fucking learning and then the school did like that was the same thing right at the fucking ten yard line ready to fucking cross over him fumble the ball yeah that that only some of that was our fault just cause we didn't know enough and we were doing something that was you know above us yeah which is not bad you know I'm glad we did but also the there was circumstances that came in play that were out of our hands you know yeah yeah and it's like you know there's this like saying and I don't know exactly what it is but it's like if you reach for the stars you might fall on the moon but still you reached yeah you know if not you're like not trying for anything yeah you can you do that you have to like you have to go up to stuff that's bigger than you yeah that you can't even fucking imagine getting yeah cause you might not get all the way to where you wanna go but you're gonna at least get a partial way there halfway there you know for sure Z yeah yeah for sure Z and I think that's some we teach our kids yeah like we wanna we wanna pass it on to them you know and I always tell them like I think I for me what's really important that they kind of learn is that they I wanna build up their self esteem you know yeah I want them to think and I think all the oldest son is like there yeah you know cause I'm always like you can fucking do anything damn it you can fucking do it well he I'm telling you he's 14 and he's in band and like doing all kinds of like he's in the the what do you call it's not they don't call gate here do they no he's just I don't I don't know if they have a gate program cause he's in an advanced math classes and stuff like that he's 14 and I look back and I man I wish I'm so fucking proud of them my older boys too like my 22 and 19 and ones he's open and grow operation in Oklahoma he's working super fucking hard man hasn't been he's been working a whole year with no making no fucking money and just like pushing for his dreams my 19 year old he's a selling cars he's into sales and stuff like that yeah he's a big dreamer too I'm fucking proud of a man cause at that age I wasn't even in the fucking in the you imagine how much further they are they're gonna be yeah they're those kids are gonna make something big yeah yeah and you know like our oldest son the other day when I was like ah that's so fucking cool um I can't remember he's so we don't we didn't teach her kids Spanish so they kind of speak like like no sabo kids they're like no sabo kids but I think it's really cool when he was like I was like how could you not know Spanish cause he got like a B or something yeah and I was like how come you don't have an A yes I push whatever and I was like how come you how come you didn't do good like I really wanted to know like why is it so hard for you you know yeah and he's like Mimi they call me Mimi anyway um he's like Mimi Spanish is hard it's not like math math is easy I was like oh math is easy oh cause that was your thing right math yeah cause math has always like numbers make sense to me so I did I stopped going to fucking the kids can ask me for a math to help them with math cause the little ones can but not my older one cause I'm fucking lost on that yeah at that age I was I used to watch a history channel I'd get stoned and watch a history channel so ask me about World War 2 yeah at least I did that you know I still Learned a little bit but that's about it yeah I think he's outgrowing me in math too though oh he's he outgrow me fucking couple years ago on math yeah yeah like I still know what he's doing now but I think next year like that's it man yeah that's it I can help a little bit but not a lot anymore yeah but I don't want them only to be like good at school you know like cause you know colleges and everything used to be to be honest you just give yourself for a lot of people to just get themselves in debt and then they go work for less money than what we make without college educations and and one of the things I always always tell people like when they're um when they ask me like oh you want your kids to go to college and I'm kind of like maybe not you know I don't care if they go it's like remember we had that friend um I'll call him Tolo but it's not well we so we had a friend okay and he was a university professor and it was like a very coveted school or whatever and he was part time granted and I think he had just got his doctorate or whatever but he was only making 40 thousand dollars a year yeah and I say only because he had like half a million dollar debt would have been like 12 years in school or some shit yeah something like that ridiculous amount of time and and for his first job to get 40,000 I was like oh my God that's fucking crazy you know yeah um and so he had all this debt and it's like man when do you get out of it when it's half a million dollars I I know fucking plumbers that are millionaires you know what I mean yeah from from doing plumbing so why would you push your kids to go to college to get a job for somebody else when they could create their own business doing what they wanna do you know but you know at the same at the same time like there's people there's people out there that I don't know we've been here had certain things or circumstances wouldn't have happened you know so there's people out there that are kind of like well this is all we know because we went to college and now we're making you know I don't know 60$80,000 or whatever it is a year and so maybe my kid can make 100 if they go to college yeah you know and for us like as long as I I would prefer them to have their own thing and like run their own show and have that independence and stuff than to owe money to Uncle Sam or I don't I don't really care if they wanna go to college and that's what they wanna do or or they wanna start their own business as long as they have a purpose and they're going towards their purpose and they're happy doing what they're doing I don't care what if they wanna be trashman and that makes them happy and they live a comfortable life and they're good I'm I'm all for it yeah yeah as long as they push themselves though like yeah I I don't know happiness is cool but also you gotta push yourself through like not being happy I don't know though cause fuck if I could do it over again I think I fucking go backpacking fucking you know they go in South America backpacking and shit that would that's not that is not a mom's dream that's like my bucket list right there yeah and if my kids want to do that I'mma push them to do that what was that that is not a mom's dream oh It went dead okay your heater it's cause it's fucking cold your heater you heated up the cameras too much yeah it was cold in here all right well we better uh I think we're gonna have to wrap it up just cause uh haha I think these cameras gonna go dead so so I'm cold and we put the heater on in here and so one of the cameras died I think because of the heat huh yeah so yeah we better I think honestly we've been uh going a little bit but I think we should wrap it up just so we don't lose the cameras and everything yeah but again um that was really uncomfortable talking about myself but appreciate you guys listening like and subscribe share the podcast with your friends if you think there's any value there for them and we appreciate all the support and you can find me at Vanidosa Beauty and beautypreneur underscore CEO yeah you can find me at Leeboy Savage on Instagram okay we'll catch you guys at the next one alright bye guys bye All pitudo!